i know it's been a while since i've written anything on here but a lot has been happening in my life recently and i think it's about time i say something.
to the people who are here and proud:
i love you all. the support i get from each one of you day by day is what keeps me going. i am so thankful for my friends and family who have my back and are constantly at bat for me and my happiness. truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
to the people who are here, but not so proud:
i love you all. thank you for continuing to love me, whether you agree with my lifestyle or not. i believe we can work together to salvage relationships and help learn from one another. you are looking for a "new normal" and so am i. let's find it together.
to the people who have left:
i still love you all.
this has been the hardest season of my life. i bet many people are reading this wondering how i have gone so far astray off the straight and narrow (literally), how such a wonderful and god-fearing young woman has left everything she knew. well, to be frank, i haven't! i have wrestled with and struggled through this for the last year and a half. when i first met Emily and i realized i liked her as more than just a friend, my whole world changed. how could i possibly be gay? after all i had dealt with in my christian faith, here's one more thing to add on. i ran from it and i tried and tried to be what people expected me to be, but you know what? that's not who i am. i have asked myself over and over how a god who IS love, can't support me loving my girlfriend? i haven't come up with a good answer yet.
people have been very quick to judge
which honestly, has only added to my confusion.
though there has been a great deal of animosity lately, even the "good hearted" people often overstep.
many people are urging me to turn back to jesus (assuming i had left him in the first place) but are doing the opposite of showing christ's love! if we haven't talked in a while, how about a hey how are you? before a "you're headed for hell"
those who have approached me in humility and love will tell you first hand i will get coffee with anyone who wants to ask me about my life. there is so much more happening in it than just me being gay! i go to school, i am the president of the rugby team, etc.
so all of this being said: if you have a question for me, go ahead, ask. my number is 267-977-4966.
but seriously, stop teaching your kids to post comments on facebook, instead how about you reach out? maybe then my awesome mother in law won't roast you on the internet.
the LGBTQ community faces so much adversity and then people want to know why none of them want to go to church?
LOVE people. love them for who they are as HUMANS and stop valuing their sexuality over their humanness! God created ALL MEN equal and belittling and bullying people in the name of God isn't what he asked his followers to do.
so if you need me, i'm gonna be out here living my life. feel free to give me a call, send me a text, shoot me a message, send a letter, carrier pidgeon, anything. but make it personal, if you really do care. and if you don't care enough to talk directly to ME, then put up or shut up.
thanks for coming to my TED Talk.
