Monday, July 28, 2014

two roads diverged . . .

two roads diverged in a wood
and oh so sorry I could not travel both
they told me I must make my decision. 
in or out.
for or against.
death or life.
two roads diverged in a wood
and I am choosing the one you would not expect. 

Monday, July 14, 2014


And somehow making time for homework & friends & family time?
Currently feeling convicted about LIFE. Whhhhhyyyy is it so hard to follow Jesus & follow him wholeheartedly? I was raised in the church! You would think that makes it easier! #wrong 
The literal struggle is tooooo real.
//// if you think about it, pray for me: that I might stay grounded & not become complacent. //// 
On a different note: as I sat in prayer on Sunday I thought about why I can't do this, and why I can't do that. What makes it so wrong? It would be so much easier if I just didn't believe anything and just lived my life. I keep finding myself waiting for something. Waiting for that big turnaround moment. For the day that my commitment to Christ sticks. Waiting for something (someone) to swoop in and change my life forever.  Well about halfway through prayer my answer came. It was in the form of a pregnant, 17 year old girl, walking through the front doors looking for guidance and love. I could only offer the latter & simply point her to Jesus. We cried together & prayed together. I don't think she knows just how loved she really is. Not only by me, but by the one who holds her life. 
We can never really expect the unexpected. This news came flying out from left field and I didn't know how to react. But the nice part about this is that I don't have to react. A friend of mine told me that it's not my job to fix this situation. I can't fix it, if I could I would have already done so. All I have to do is trust in The Lord and his sovereign plan & be an arrow, pointing only to Jesus. And I think that's what we are called to be. Arrows that point people to Jesus. Because after all, what are we without him? 

Prayer requests: 
1. /see aforementioned request/
2. For this girl, who shall remain nameless, that she might find Jesus in this. 
3. Wisdom in this situation for her and her parents. 
4. That her boyfriend comes to find a relationship with Christ.