prone to wander.

laughing.

Forever and always laughing my head off at the way my life seems to go.
I am NOT going to Moody.
I am not going to Chicago.
I am going to Bucks.
I am going to be a nurse.
I WILL graduate with honors.
I will prove everyone that I can do this.
But mostly, I will prove it to myself.

life lately

well, it's official. i am the WORST blogger out there.

BUT, today, i got a new laptop so maybe that'll give me some incentive to blog on a more regular basis. i go on these blogging kicks and i get post happy for like a day. whooooops.

anyways, some updates:

I will be officially starting at Moody Bible Institute in the fall! I am PUMPED. I am majoring in pre-counseling which is like social work and I'll also be getting a small concentration in Ministry to Victims of Sexual Exploitation. I hope to someday to move to the Middle East and be a missionary to Muslim people.

I've been working at Calvary this summer, cleaning and what-not. It's actually been really great. I am working with one of my best friends, Gabbi. BUT she's on a road trip for the next few weeks. ugh. 

This week I had my wisdom teeth out so I've been out of commission for the past 2 days. I'm in a lot of pain, but it could be worse. It has been kind of nice to have some time off of work to sit and watch Netflix, hah.

In about a week and a half I am leaving for 2 weeks to go to counsel at Mt. Gilead for 2 weeks so that will be so fun. I am really excited about it. The camp got a new director is so nice and I can really tell that she loves the Lord and is definitely in it to serve. 

So that's pretty much what's going on in my life lately. Nothing too exciting but still pretty busy. 

back, back again

WELP. I had written a post at the beginning of May *gulp*
that I never posted! It was my fault though because it wasn't totally finished. BUT, it contained a bit of wild information, if I do say so myself.

I am not going to Bible College in California anymore.
And I bet by this point in time a bunch of you already know or have heard that.
At this point, the why and the details are just sort of water under the bridge.

I am certainly looking forward to what the Lord has in store for this next season of life.
Yesterday was my very last day of high school EVER.
Tomorrow is my last shift at Ann's Choice.
Graduation is next Saturday.
Senior Trip is next week.
I am starting a new job soon.
and currently. as we speak.
my application to Moody Bible Institute is under review!!!
I am PUMPED. I want to go there so bad.
If I get in, I will double major in Pre-Counseling and Ministry to Victims of Sexual Exploitation and take both degrees to the Middle East.

God's got a plan. I am not quite sure what it is, but I can't wait to see what he has in store for me.

#givehope4iraq

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doubting thomas

Many of you know my plans for the future:

Go to California in the fall

Transfer to the campus in Vajta, Hungary after a semester or so

Become a missionary to Muslim people

Recently I have been doubting these plans so much,

And it hasn't been for any real reason. 

I mean, I've been getting really really sad when I think about how I am not going to college to be an English teacher / writer / editor. 

Me and my selfishness have been like "Am I going to hate serving other people for the rest of my life? Probably." 

How stupid is that?! Especially since I'm headed right into God's will. 

But ANYWAY, the women's seminar yesterday and today completely blessed me. 

All of the speakers 100% reassured me that I am going to love where I am headed in this next season. 

I have been praying and praying that I wouldn't lose my fire and that my heart for Muslim people wouldn't die out. Today, when Heather Mercer put up the pictures of the women in chains because of ISIS, I was longing to help set them free. And those aren't the only women in danger! Many women are sold into slavery and sex trafficking. If you've kept up with my blog so far, you know I participated in Dressember, and I wore a dress everyday for a month to raise awareness for sex trafficking. 

All of this to say...

The Lord is faithful. 

Like honestly so faithful. In all of my humanness and daily failings, he never lets me down!

He knows every doubt and worry that my heart has ever seen and ever will see. 

I have never been more loved than by my Heavenly Father. 

What a wonderful feeling it is to be cherished by the one who holds my life and has numbered my days. 

I am honored to know Jesus. I am honored that he knows my name and has written my story. I am honored to do his will. 

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. 

Psalm 119

{1,500+ women, hands raised, praising the most high God}

the world can't see jesus if we don't look like jesus.