instagram challenge.

I have decided for the next thirty days to only post things on instagram about Jesus, Bible verses/encouragement, etc. I'm calling it #30dayswithjesus

If you want to keep an eye out for my posts feel free to visit
Instagram.com/abigaaiiillll

i choose jesus.

"In one moment

Everything changed.

Who I was got washed away,

When mercy found me.

The savior's arms are open wide

And I've found love

For the very first time. 

When mercy found me."

colleeegggeee. merpp.

I APPLIED FOR COLLEGE
scary, scary, scaryyy.
I have been dreading this moment for like a year.

buuttt, surprisingly enough

it wasn't that bad.

shocker right?

i know.

I applied to two schools for early admission

Kentucky Christian University (yayyy!!) and Grove City College.

GCC is my 'reach' school. I don't really expect to be accepted but it would be really nice.

Kentucky is my top choice. I reeeeally wanna go there. ugh. I can't believe this is happening!

Senior year is here! I got senior picture information in the mail today.

it's toooo weird. although

i am excited (kinda a little) for school to start

so many new beginnings.

life has been really crazy lately

one bad decision after another.

but i'm learning?

and growing?

and changing?

what?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

anyways

college.

cool. woo. 

two roads diverged . . .

two roads diverged in a wood

and oh so sorry I could not travel both

they told me I must make my decision. 

in or out.

for or against.

death or life.

two roads diverged in a wood

and I am choosing the one you would not expect. 

I have learned to kiss the waves that slam me into the rock of ages.

inconsistent.

Work

Work

Work

Class

Work 

Class

Work...again

And somehow making time for homework & friends & family time?

Currently feeling convicted about LIFE. Whhhhhyyyy is it so hard to follow Jesus & follow him wholeheartedly? I was raised in the church! You would think that makes it easier! #wrong 

The literal struggle is tooooo real.

//// if you think about it, pray for me: that I might stay grounded & not become complacent. //// 

On a different note: as I sat in prayer on Sunday I thought about why I can't do this, and why I can't do that. What makes it so wrong? It would be so much easier if I just didn't believe anything and just lived my life. I keep finding myself waiting for something. Waiting for that big turnaround moment. For the day that my commitment to Christ sticks. Waiting for something (someone) to swoop in and change my life forever.  Well about halfway through prayer my answer came. It was in the form of a pregnant, 17 year old girl, walking through the front doors looking for guidance and love. I could only offer the latter & simply point her to Jesus. We cried together & prayed together. I don't think she knows just how loved she really is. Not only by me, but by the one who holds her life. 

We can never really expect the unexpected. This news came flying out from left field and I didn't know how to react. But the nice part about this is that I don't have to react. A friend of mine told me that it's not my job to fix this situation. I can't fix it, if I could I would have already done so. All I have to do is trust in The Lord and his sovereign plan & be an arrow, pointing only to Jesus. And I think that's what we are called to be. Arrows that point people to Jesus. Because after all, what are we without him? 

Nothing. 

Prayer requests: 

1. /see aforementioned request/

2. For this girl, who shall remain nameless, that she might find Jesus in this. 

3. Wisdom in this situation for her and her parents. 

4. That her boyfriend comes to find a relationship with Christ.