goodbye.

{tomorrow}

tomorrow, my sister and best friend is moving to Montana. 

no more sappy goodbyes, just know that I love you. 

and that's all you need to know. 

 

trying.

as I struggle and wrestle with a few things, this verse keeps coming to mind. however, I did not know it was a verse until today. I kept turning the phrase over in my mind when I decided to look it up. sure enough, it comes from Micah. 

{life is a cycle. a difficult, tiring, and unrelenting cycle.}

mistake. 

tears. 

repent.

small attempt at change.

not strong enough.

repeat.

over, and over, and over again. 

so I ask myself, when will the cycle end? when will I be able to stand up to my sin and say, "enough is enough!" 

well, I've come to realize that I will never be able to say that. never. 

not until I fully put my trust in The Lord, will I be able to relinquish my sin and the hold it has on my life.

and wow, does it hurt.

it hurts because of my weakness and my inability to humble myself before the throne of grace and let God take control. 

they tell me that my struggle is a good thing. the fact that I struggle, and I realize it must mean that I care and am trying. and while both of those things are true, I hate the struggle. but until I make a concious effort to change, the struggle will continue to be a losing battle. 

I have learned that I will always learn the hard way. because for some reason, the easy way isn't good enough, or something. 

so though I fall, I will rise again. 

because his mercies are new every morning. 

and his power is made perfect in weakness. 

/// what i'm eating ///

{greeeeeeen smoothie}

1 c. Ice

3/4 c. Coconut water 

1 c. Kale (I use a kale medley, which has spinach, shredded carrots, etc.)

A banana

1/2 c. Or so of all natural peanut butter

1 Tbs. Agave nectar, for sweetness. 

.senior shoot part 2.

.senior shoot.

As the end of the year rapidly approaches, senior year will be here before I can blink. My lovely friend, Danae, kindly offered to take some senior photos for me. We had a blast today at Tyler State Park and the photos turned out amazing. HUGE shoutout to my homegirl defiant Dana for being fantastic. 

// some of the photos I've gotten back //

{more to come}

.daily reminder.

"I am determined to be cheerful and be happy in whatever situation I may be, for I have also learnt from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our situation and not upon our circumstances." - Martha Washington

/// what i'm lovin ///

[outfit of the day]

things i'm lovin:

1. messy buns. i've probably worn a messy bun everyday for the past 3 weeks because they're easy, you can dress them up or down, and you can wear them wet or dry. plus they're low maintnence.

2. skinny sweats. i got mine at target (not h&m, shocker, i know). they're so comfortable and ugh yes.

3. jean jacket. timeless and classy, yet understated. the jean jacket has it all.

4. as always, the color grey. grey is my favorite color to wear. i'm not sure why but it always has been and probably always will be.